A new beginning

This week I have decided to turn my life around! Lets hope I stick to it, but I am really determined to this time.

First step on my way to a better self is to lose weight. Why? For health reason? To wear those jeans that I don't fit into anymore? to feel comfortable in my own naked skin? Well, yes to all of those things. But mainly it's for revenge. A friend of mine is getting married early next year and I plan to burst in there with the sexiest, skankiest outfit that I can squeeze myself into. Why? I just plain don't like her. She gets to act like a whore her whole life. Taking on several lovers at a time sometimes, yet somehow her parents and whole family have the impression that I am a bad influence. Me who gets top grades. Who has only ever "been with" one man. The one who when I tried to talk her out of being the town whore was clearly "just jealous."

Back-stabbing-two-faced bitch. So I figure, it's time to show her I am way hotter than her (cause I am -lol) and that any idiot can act like a skank.

And she will forever remember her wedding day as the day I out-attentioned her. Cause that's what she is deep down an attention whore ... her actually whore-iness comes from that ridiculous desire for attention. Well she won't know what hit her.

So anyways, back to losing weight. I am doing it by eating ... a lot! But the appropriate things. I brought these over the counter metabolism starters. They are absolutely massive! and if you knew how much I hate tablets, you would know just how serious I am.

So these tablets, boy do they get the old metabolism into gear. I started yesterday and I was starving the entire day. I always ate good things though, and I found that just as easy as it was to get hungry it was just as easy to fill up too.

Also ... never drink an acidy drink (it was COKE ZERO) on an absolutely empty stomach. NEVER. It kills like a MuthaFkr!! I thought my stomach was going to explode!

Anyways, yesterday I had:

1. Toast and Cheese
2. Salad (with tuna)
3. Sushi
4. Falafel wrap
5. Pasta

I know the pasta was a bad move, but it wasn't much and I'm still getting into the swing of things, but I don't think I did too badly. Nothing fried, nothing soaked in sugar.

And with the help of the metabolism starters I am hoping to see some results soon!

Today so far I had my cheese and toast and half a pear. It's only 9am ... but I woke up at 6. Ate at 20 to 7 (the toast) and by the time I got here at 8.30 I was starving again!

Anyways, I am hoping to keep eating well.

On a non diet related field. I have also decided to take uni more seriously, but in a way that I will enjoy. Rather than putting my emphasis on the hard subjects that I do not enjoy and do not wish to pursue in the real world. I will put the majority of my efforts into the fields that I do want to move into. This way I have an awesome portfolio to show for my time here rather than a crappy one cause I spent all my time programming instead of animating.

I am no longer pissed off at my gay friend from the last post anymore. I am back to loving him. I was just angry then. He really is a great guy! I know he's a hypocrite lol but I can forgive that I guess.

I am still with my boyfriend! It is almost a year now (I think 3 weeks to go) it's kinda scary. But its good. I am stupidly in love :)

Umm and I think that's all for this post. I am losing weight, I am focusing on uni, and I am in love.

Awesome stuff :)

If you are out there and you are reading this, drop me a line :)

Until next time ...

Gay men are hypocrites!

This is the reason I decided to start a blog today. I realised that I had some whinging to do that could possibly make me sound insane to anyone who cared enough to listen.

So my first rant is about how gay men are hypocrites. Please, do not misunderstand. I am not against gays or a homophobe ... and until recently my life mission was to have a gay best friend. You know a guy (just like Will from Will and Grace) who I could bitch to about other men and take shopping and all that fun stuff.

Well, a few months ago this prayer of mine was answered when my best friend decided to out himself. Now, this is a huge secret and no one is allowed to know (including my boyfriend ... who I met through my friend ... they are REALLY close). So anyways, he still has to act all macho and manly and we very rarely get to do those things that I always dreamed of doing with my gay best friend.

Instead what I get is backstabbing hypocrisy. A few months ago (when he was still pretending to be straight) he went on a giant rant (in front of my boyfriend) about girls who expect their boyfriends to pay for stuff and how women are stupid because they want all the perks of being a woman (eg - having a man pay for her) and yet fight for equality.

So, anyway, he had this massive rant about how everything should be 50/50 in a relationship. Which I actually agree with. Okay, maybe 55/45. I like to be spoiled from time to time! And just put me down MASSIVELY in front of my boyfriend. I'm not the kind of person who expects him to pay for things anyways. If my BF pays for dinner, I pay for the movies, or I pick up the bill next time. 'Cause that's how I roll. But this rant of my friend's really got to me. It's like he was purposely trying to put me down.

Anyways, now guess who has a bf? That's right. My best friend. And turns out he's the girl in the relationship since his boyfriend pays for ABSOLUTELY everything when the two of them go out. Including buying him gifts and stuff.

Not that I care about that. It's his life. What I do hate however is that now he talks about it like its perfectly normal. Like that's how it's meant to be. He BRAGS about it. And even worse we were sitting down having lunch today, me, my 'bestie' and the only one of our friends who actually knows his secret and we are talking about dating and stuff and he has the nerve to say to me, "Oh but your bf's not like that, eh?"

Fucking asshole.

And seriously, I don't have a jealous bone in my body. Letting a guy pay for me would feel kinda close to prostitution. But, his stupid hypocrisy pisses me off. So girls are whores and users if they get "treated right" but gay men have a right to be? God, I hate double standards.

No, I didn't tell him this. I am too much of a lady for that.